kenjimurasame

I guess I can do this thing too because I want to be included

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four things you want in a romantic partner.
Day Eight: Three of your favorite possessions.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life or yourself right now.
Day Ten: One confession

1. You're a baby and I hate you. Why do I know you. You nearly cost me some very great things because of your neurosis and I should have been smarter than I was. Fuck a pig and die.

2. We're best friends but I feel like we aren't very close anymore, although there isn't much that can be done about it. It's one of the few times when it feels like the distance can actually be too great, but I know that we're still going to be best friends because that's the way we've forged our relationship. But if I ever lost it, I don't really even know how to finish that sentence.

3. You're a fantastic person, and I kind of wish you lived closer because I think it'd be a blast to hang out with you more often, plus it sounds like where and how you live are kind of unfortunate. I hope that your dream comes true, and everything goes your way. However, I think you spend too much time dithering and not enough actually putting your amazing mind to work. You could accomplish so much but you seem to shackle yourself to failure.

4. I was wrong about a few things with you, but I think I've grown to hate you. The fact that I still see your name listed somewhere on my profile just reminds me of all the time I wasted on you, the investments I made into a friendship that left me destroyed in a lot of ways. I hope you get run over by a truck. I still kick myself for closing my chances to tell you how I really felt by having a civilized, toned down version of it posted instead. You, like a lot of these people, probably don't even 'exist' online anymore, but if I ever ran into you on the street I would gladly spend the night in jail for knocking your teeth in.

5. Everything I did with you was a mistake and the fact that you were the first person I seriously devoted myself to makes me sick to this day. I'll never forget you, and that's not a compliment. The sad thing is you seem to have developed into a decent person. Too bad I was probably a stepping stone for that. I wonder if you even remember me?

6. I'll never really understand what happened between us. I thought we had something, but we didn't, I guess. The reasoning why it fell apart made less sense than how it started, but you taught me a lot, and I've made sure not to replicate any of it, so good for you. No idea what you're up to anymore, but I hope it's terrible.

7. I miss talking to you, and I wish it didn't require the moon to be in a different alignment and to have to use a chat program I rarely run ever to do so. I hope things go fantastically for you because you're probably one of the most talented people I know. I still have that Christmas Card.

8. You're the best. a 10 out of 10. You're the best thing to ever come to me. This one is probably going to be really easy to figure out.

9. How in the world did I ever see anything in you? You were one of the most seriously damaged people I think I've ever known, and the fact that you seem to have fallen off the face of the earth may be for the best. You always played the victim but you were really a manipulative fuck who liked to be treated badly. You'll never be happy and I think that makes you happy, championing political causes to nowhere while ignoring real people.

10. Why did we stop talking? I think you were, and maybe still are, in some way, one of my best friends. It seems like some things happened in your life, and I've been busy, but I miss our weird little conversations we used to have, and I really miss the cards I used to get from you. You were the little sister I never had, and I kind of miss that.

Oh dammit I didn't finish it before 12 now I have to wait another day

oh well

"How hard, how bitter it is to become a man!"

-Albert Camus